Well, it's been a while since I last sat down and took the time to explain things. So much has been happening that I haven't had time to do much of anything. I'm volunteering at Hall, my old high school while also trying to coordinate orientations at different group homes for my summer job. Then there's school. Yes, York is over and done with and now I have to worry about having everything ready for U of T. I'm really excited about moving downtown, especially for Kensington Market!!
Aside from just the general volunteer, work, and school lots has been happening. I'll start with the most recent and work backwards because somehow it makes more sense that way!
1. My nose ring has become infected, more than it ever has! There's yellow pus, something I've never seen come out of my nose before, plus it hurts. :( I'm not going to take out the piercing though because it cost me $60 and I want to get a few more years out of it before I take it out and have done with it. Although I am very tempted to just say "screw it" now!
2. Tanner and Jeremy are gay lovers! I have the pictures to prove it!
3. Rockband rocks! (Check out the pictures to see!)
4. MOVIES! I have picked up at least 100 new VHS movies! I keep finding such great classics at garage sales. It has become my new obsession. I feel that I already have all the books that I need right now and have shifted my focus to collecting all the movies I feel I need to watch!
5. Life in general. I'm always on the go it seems!!
I'm fading, tired, and infected.
Goodnight!
-c.s.
May 31, 2008
May 22, 2008
Being a Friend
Being a friend is hard sometimes. You feel really terrible when you let someone down and, despite how selfish it is, you feel even worse when you are let down, left out, or just plain ignored. I have purged quite a bit from my life, deciding what to keep and what to toss. A lot of stuff I have very fond memories of and I have a story for everything in my room and everything that I have held onto for all these years. But now looking at some of the stuff I still have in my room makes me sad and just a bit angry. After years of friendship things can just all of a sudden stop and you don't realize how fast they stop. You try so hard to hang on to the past when sometimes you just have to let go and move on. Promises of being friends forever now seems like childish wishes. Nothing gold can stay, or so the saying goes. So despite trying to hold on to something that has vanished years ago it is time to let go and let be. Say hi to me in the store, wave to me across the street, and ask me how life is without really caring. Make more empty promises of getting together like strangers meeting for the first time. Who I was is not who I am and I have got to stop pretending that I am anyone else I am not. I no longer know your favourite colour, your boyfriend's name, or the colour of your eyes. Memories will remain as the future fades away and I will laugh and cry as I visit each one. I will laugh for what we were and I will cry for what we were not able to continue being. May you continue to make new memories with new friends. Gather new friends but remember the old; for one of them's silver and the other is gold...nothing gold can stay...
-c.s.
-c.s.
May 16, 2008
Palestine > Israel
A 2000 year old dream became a nightmarish reality 60 years ago for the people of Palestine. The abuse that I have heard of and seen pictures of is incredible. I cannot believe how we can turn a blind eye to the devestation that the State of Israel has caused for Palestine. But when we take a stand against Israel we are called anti-semites. We should be ashamed that we would be bullied into being afraid to stand up for human rights and an entire soveriegn nation.
-c.s.
-c.s.
Finnegan's Wake: Book a Minute
I have created my own language to tell the cyclical history of humanity.
Brilliance!
(dies)
http://www.rinkworks.com/bookaminute/b/joyce.finnegans.shtml
-c.s.
May 5, 2008
Taken from The Post American World by Fareed Zakaria
American anxiety springs from something much deeper, a sense that large and disruptive forces are coursing through the world. In almost every industry, in every aspect of life, it feels like the patterns of the past are being scrambled. [...] for the first time in living memory—the United States does not seem to be leading the charge. Americans see that a new world is coming into being, but fear it is one being shaped in distant lands and by foreign people.
Look around. The world's tallest building is in Taipei, and will soon be in Dubai. Its largest publicly traded company is in Beijing. Its biggest refinery is being constructed in India. Its largest passenger airplane is built in Europe. The largest investment fund on the planet is in Abu Dhabi; the biggest movie industry is Bollywood, not Hollywood. Once quintessentially American icons have been usurped by the natives. The largest Ferris wheel is in Singapore. The largest casino is in Macao, which overtook Las Vegas in gambling revenues last year. America no longer dominates even its favorite sport, shopping. The Mall of America in Minnesota once boasted that it was the largest shopping mall in the world. Today it wouldn't make the top ten. In the most recent rankings, only two of the world's ten richest people are American. These lists are arbitrary and a bit silly, but consider that only ten years ago, the United States would have serenely topped almost every one of these categories.
These factoids reflect a seismic shift in power and attitudes. It is one that I sense when I travel around the world. In America, we are still debating the nature and extent of anti-Americanism. One side says that the problem is real and worrying and that we must woo the world back. The other says this is the inevitable price of power and that many of these countries are envious—and vaguely French—so we can safely ignore their griping. But while we argue over why they hate us, "they" have moved on, and are now far more interested in other, more dynamic parts of the globe. The world has shifted from anti-Americanism to post-Americanism.
May 4, 2008
Favourite Movie Quotes
(I stole this from Dani...)
Try and guess which movies these quotations are taken from! (Some are really long, sorry!)
1. Allow me to be frank at the commencement. You will not like me. The gentlemen will be envious and the ladies will be repelled. You will not like me now and you will like me a good deal less as we go on. Ladies, an announcement: I am up for it, all the time. That is not a boast or an opinion, it is bone hard medical fact. I put it round you know. And you will watch me putting it round and sigh for it. Don't. It is a deal of trouble for you and you are better off watching and drawing your conclusions from a distance than you would be if I got my tarse up your petticoats. Gentlemen. Do not despair, I am up for that as well. And the same warning applies. Still your cheesy erections till I have had my say. But later when you shag - and later you will shag, I shall expect it of you and I will know if you have let me down - I wish you to shag with my homuncular image rattling in your gonads. Feel how it was for me, how it is for me and ponder. 'Was that shudder the same shudder he sensed? Did he know something more profound? Or is there some wall of wretchedness that we all batter with our heads at that shining, livelong moment. That is it. That is my prologue, nothing in rhyme, no protestations of modesty, you were not expecting that I hope. I am John Wilmot, Second Earl of Rochester and I do not want you to like me.
2. 'Twas a long time ago, longer now than it seems in a place perhaps you've seen in your dreams. For the story you're about to be told began with the holiday worlds of auld. Now you've probably wondered where holidays come from. If you haven't I'd say it's time you begun.
3. Beloved reader, I leave you now with a tale penned by the Abbe du Coulmier, a man who found freedom, in the most unlikeliest of places: at the bottom of an inkwell, on the tip of a quill. However, be forewarned, it's plot is blood-soaked, it's characters depraved, and it's themes... unwholesome at best. But in order to know virtue, we must acquaint ourselves with vice. Only then can we know the full measure of man. So come... I Dare you... Turn the page...
4. From now on we are enemies, You and I. Because You choose for Your instrument a boastful, lustful, smutty, infantile boy and give me for reward only the ability to recognize the incarnation. Because You are unjust, unfair, unkind, I will block You, I swear it. I will hinder and harm Your creature on earth as far as I am able.
5. Ahhh! Woooh! What's happening? Who am I? Why am I here? What's my purpose in life? What do I mean by who am I? Okay okay, calm down calm down get a grip now. Ooh, this is an interesting sensation. What is it? Its a sort of tingling in my... well I suppose I better start finding names for things. Lets call it a... tail! Yeah! Tail! And hey, what's this roaring sound, whooshing past what I'm suddenly gonna call my head? Wind! Is that a good name? It'll do. Yeah, this is really exciting. I'm dizzy with anticipation! Or is it the wind? There's an awful lot of that now isn't it? And what's this thing coming toward me very fast? So big and flat and round, it needs a big wide sounding name like 'Ow', 'Ownge', 'Round', 'Ground'! That's it! Ground! Ha! I wonder if it'll be friends with me? Hello Ground!
6. M-hmm. Well, it's nothing very special. Uh, try and be nice to people, avoid eating fat, read a good book every now and then, get some walking in, and try and live together in peace and harmony with people of all creeds and nations. And, finally, here are some completely gratuitous pictures of penises to annoy the censors and to hopefully spark some sort of controversy, which, it seems, is the only way, these days, to get the jaded, video-sated public off their fucking arses and back in the sodding cinema. Family entertainment? Bollocks. What they want is filth: people doing things to each other with chainsaws during tupperware parties, babysitters being stabbed with knitting needles by gay presidential candidates, vigilante groups strangling chickens, armed bands of theatre critics exterminating mutant goats. Where's the fun in pictures? Oh, well, there we are. Here's the theme music. Goodnight.
7. Oh, it's the truth you want is it? Okay here's some. If you want to be equal, then you have to show people the SAME respect that you demand of them! In the real world, if you INSULT some guy in a pub, you EXPECT to get hammered! If you come home in the middle of the night, you dont EXPECT to find the help waiting in and if a woman says no to you, you accept that maybe you're NOT the right man for her. You dont ASSUME you have an automatic right to love because you're in a wheelchair!
8. In the first years of the 21st century, a third World War broke out. Those of us who survived knew mankind could never survive a fourth; that our own volatile natures could simply no longer be risked. So we have created a new arm of the law: The Grammaton Cleric, whose sole task it is to seek out and eradicate the true source of man's inhumanity to man - his ability to feel.
9. Worry not, my brother. For I will be as a fly on the wall - a grain of salt in the ocean. I will move amongst them like a transparent... *thing*.
10. Your scientists were so preoccupied with whether or not they could they didn't stop to think if they should.
Have fun! If you name at least 1 you will get a hug next time I see you...
Lots of love,
c.s.
Try and guess which movies these quotations are taken from! (Some are really long, sorry!)
1. Allow me to be frank at the commencement. You will not like me. The gentlemen will be envious and the ladies will be repelled. You will not like me now and you will like me a good deal less as we go on. Ladies, an announcement: I am up for it, all the time. That is not a boast or an opinion, it is bone hard medical fact. I put it round you know. And you will watch me putting it round and sigh for it. Don't. It is a deal of trouble for you and you are better off watching and drawing your conclusions from a distance than you would be if I got my tarse up your petticoats. Gentlemen. Do not despair, I am up for that as well. And the same warning applies. Still your cheesy erections till I have had my say. But later when you shag - and later you will shag, I shall expect it of you and I will know if you have let me down - I wish you to shag with my homuncular image rattling in your gonads. Feel how it was for me, how it is for me and ponder. 'Was that shudder the same shudder he sensed? Did he know something more profound? Or is there some wall of wretchedness that we all batter with our heads at that shining, livelong moment. That is it. That is my prologue, nothing in rhyme, no protestations of modesty, you were not expecting that I hope. I am John Wilmot, Second Earl of Rochester and I do not want you to like me.
2. 'Twas a long time ago, longer now than it seems in a place perhaps you've seen in your dreams. For the story you're about to be told began with the holiday worlds of auld. Now you've probably wondered where holidays come from. If you haven't I'd say it's time you begun.
3. Beloved reader, I leave you now with a tale penned by the Abbe du Coulmier, a man who found freedom, in the most unlikeliest of places: at the bottom of an inkwell, on the tip of a quill. However, be forewarned, it's plot is blood-soaked, it's characters depraved, and it's themes... unwholesome at best. But in order to know virtue, we must acquaint ourselves with vice. Only then can we know the full measure of man. So come... I Dare you... Turn the page...
4. From now on we are enemies, You and I. Because You choose for Your instrument a boastful, lustful, smutty, infantile boy and give me for reward only the ability to recognize the incarnation. Because You are unjust, unfair, unkind, I will block You, I swear it. I will hinder and harm Your creature on earth as far as I am able.
5. Ahhh! Woooh! What's happening? Who am I? Why am I here? What's my purpose in life? What do I mean by who am I? Okay okay, calm down calm down get a grip now. Ooh, this is an interesting sensation. What is it? Its a sort of tingling in my... well I suppose I better start finding names for things. Lets call it a... tail! Yeah! Tail! And hey, what's this roaring sound, whooshing past what I'm suddenly gonna call my head? Wind! Is that a good name? It'll do. Yeah, this is really exciting. I'm dizzy with anticipation! Or is it the wind? There's an awful lot of that now isn't it? And what's this thing coming toward me very fast? So big and flat and round, it needs a big wide sounding name like 'Ow', 'Ownge', 'Round', 'Ground'! That's it! Ground! Ha! I wonder if it'll be friends with me? Hello Ground!
6. M-hmm. Well, it's nothing very special. Uh, try and be nice to people, avoid eating fat, read a good book every now and then, get some walking in, and try and live together in peace and harmony with people of all creeds and nations. And, finally, here are some completely gratuitous pictures of penises to annoy the censors and to hopefully spark some sort of controversy, which, it seems, is the only way, these days, to get the jaded, video-sated public off their fucking arses and back in the sodding cinema. Family entertainment? Bollocks. What they want is filth: people doing things to each other with chainsaws during tupperware parties, babysitters being stabbed with knitting needles by gay presidential candidates, vigilante groups strangling chickens, armed bands of theatre critics exterminating mutant goats. Where's the fun in pictures? Oh, well, there we are. Here's the theme music. Goodnight.
7. Oh, it's the truth you want is it? Okay here's some. If you want to be equal, then you have to show people the SAME respect that you demand of them! In the real world, if you INSULT some guy in a pub, you EXPECT to get hammered! If you come home in the middle of the night, you dont EXPECT to find the help waiting in and if a woman says no to you, you accept that maybe you're NOT the right man for her. You dont ASSUME you have an automatic right to love because you're in a wheelchair!
8. In the first years of the 21st century, a third World War broke out. Those of us who survived knew mankind could never survive a fourth; that our own volatile natures could simply no longer be risked. So we have created a new arm of the law: The Grammaton Cleric, whose sole task it is to seek out and eradicate the true source of man's inhumanity to man - his ability to feel.
9. Worry not, my brother. For I will be as a fly on the wall - a grain of salt in the ocean. I will move amongst them like a transparent... *thing*.
10. Your scientists were so preoccupied with whether or not they could they didn't stop to think if they should.
Have fun! If you name at least 1 you will get a hug next time I see you...
Lots of love,
c.s.
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